Friday, September 30, 2005

Beautiful in despair. Hurhahah.
Im a certified sadist.
Practising lightning quick window-minimizing technique right now.
Reflexes, reflexes. Very important.

Breast hurt like shit. Heidi slammed a 75km/h tennis ball into my sternum.
A little towards the right. I'd sworn a few ligaments tore with the colossal impact.
Not to mention hairline cracks on my sternum.
Tennis is fun. Tennis requires people to run around.
I have weak arms. Sigh. Miserable. Partner, on the other hand...


All reason and shame has vanished. And then it all falls down to nothing.
When you can’t go after what you really want, you become distracted by other things.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

I lost my phone.
Damn.
Suspect to have dropped it in 315 when going back.
Took 315 to interchange to enquire.
NOTHING. And phone was off,(i on-ed it when i got out of school) so I guess that's the end of it all.
My poor 6month old phone. :(
Was damn pissed the journey to interchange. Mum was such an unsupportive shit.
She was reprimanding me all the way and bah, that i felt relieved when she alighted at Ave1. Bloody.
She is either tactless or just plain unfeeling. Im sure it's the latter.
And then she just had to board the bus and the broiling anger evolved into something raging, fiery and aggressive. And I felt like lashing out with something scathing.
Fucking hell. What is wrong with me.
This is inappropriate and preposterous behaviour. Buy me some bipolar meds.
I hate being pissy.
It makes me choke and have sinister rumblings in my stomach.
Then pupils will start to dilate and I think mean thoughts.
I should venture into psychiatry. It's fitting for me.

Called up Singtel when I got home. Guess what, $250 fee to terminate line.
Damn nonsense. I was murderous. Attempted calling my phone.
Loser rejected the call. Im positively enraged.
Told my mum i'd pay for the termination. She obviously found some fluke in my suggestion.
Verbal sparring ensues.
I could have destroyed something. Broke a cd. >_>
My my, temper is my death.
Then suddenly, I cooled down so rapidly, it was almost as though I was never pissed at all. Was oddly detached from the world.
The ephemeral nature of anger in Simins. Documentation advised.

I have a sudden epiphany.
There are many losers in this world. The monstrosity strikes me hard and fast.
Nosehairs are tickling me.
The most infuriating of all, you can do almost nothing against such undesirable strains of humans.
Owell. It's nice to be nihilistic. I should be right now.
There's nothing else i have to say.
Jaa.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

O MY COMPY IS FINALLY ALIVE. AFTER 5MONTHS OF ABSTINENCE.
*rejoices*
Changed the graphic card. Yeayyy.
O my lovely yaois. *floats and giggles*
THERE IS SO MUCH TO CTACH UP WITH. OHOHOHO.

Right. Enough of the nonsense perverted things people have no interest in.
Prelims results were out yesterday. Like all of them at once.
Did not die so many times as predicted. Hooo!
No Cs this time, and i got a b3 for MATH. ALLELUIA.
MUAHAHA.I must kowtow to Baka.
At this rate, my once unattainable dreams of As for math might actually be tangible. But then when i saw my careless mistakes I went to drive myself into the floor panels.
CARELESSNESS KILLS, MY GOOD PEOPLE. CHECK YOUR WORK!
Ohoo, thy remembered to change the geog answer! O thank the heavens. *prostrates*
If not my A1 will be GONE. The horror of the thought.
Got 15 points in total. Sigh. Target was 12. 3 points off. >_>
Shouldn't be going to any jc la, unless they offer me H2 science.
I must say it's terribly unfair for CombinedScience people not being able to take H2 science. Im extremely affronted. It is most condescending, this refusal.
More than half of the cohort no need go jc already la, since PL only hs 2 pure science classes.
Nonsense. There goes my dreams of taking H2,H3 biology. Bah.

Atoji is so cute. AHAHAHAHAHA. YAY. So is Momoryo. Oh my god, im blissful.
Ok shut up simin.
Hopefully i can go on the clique trip to HK, by impressing my dad with my (un)wonderful results. Maybe on the account of me actually not borderline passing math for once he will let me go. WISH ME LUCK, PLEBIANS!

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Hello.
Once agin my lengthy absence from the online world has made me deprived.
Of things you know. ;)
Anyway, am at my cousin's house, so no chance to do any unscrupulous vulgar things.
The sadness of it all. Im reading PG fics because that's the only thing i can do.
Prelims are sort of over. Yay. So fast some more. I remember monday i was ridiculously scared and I woke up at 3 and couldn't sleep after that. Had an overwhelming urge to vomit in school.
And my lousy hands were trembling. Seems like stress is capable of affecting me too.
Hoho.
Lit was fine, SS was fine, though i have not much confidence over SBQ and essay part1.
Math paper1 was doable. Oh my god. I was elated.
Only left 2 semi-questions blank. What is this newfound euphoria?
Math paper2 wasn't a killer, but i already lost 20m due to stupidity and carelessness.
10 more to go if i want my A.
Though it is indeed a miracle for e8s to jump to As, but one can hope. Hoh.
I mean, it feels good to get As and if you can get them, why not? Owell.
Geog was good. But my short term memory has killed me.
I cant remember if i remembered to change one of the 7m questions to China instead of Singapore. If not, die. 7m gone for nothing.
For a question i totally can do. If yes, thank the heavens.
Living in doubt is the second worse feeling to being maligned. ._.
Science was relatively easy. Bio was harder than usual. It gave off weird vibes.
But i could answer la. Learnt a new fact, milk contains dietary fibre.
Either im really oblivious or dumb, but i never knew that.
So far so good. Chem was great. O it was spirit-lifting. Yay.
Left with mcqs and Art. Eeurgh.
Im excited to get back the prelims results. When will they release it? : D