Friday, December 31, 2004

In 46 mins and 23 seconds' time, it will be a
NEW YEAR.

How utterly memorable.
2004 has been a wonderful year.
Ok, here comes the 10million people thank-you list.
Sings a medley of carols

Tingmei,Heidi&Joee:
We were the original Clique man.
You guys are the bestest.
Together with all the hilarious moments, the insanity and just basically everything,
You've been a solid foundation for me through this new class, and i believe that can apply to
the rest of you too.
All the best for the next year, and you know i'll be there when you need somebody. :D
Heidi-
The most wonderful singer in class and maybe of all Sec3s. Your personality rocks. You're funny. Continue being nice or i'll steal your manga. Huhuhu. Yaoi and Naruto rocks. XD
Joee-
Fellow insanitic. You're funny. I love funny people. Let's continue irritating Hilary next year.
And keep those class choir sessions to a schedule, preferably everyday, music helps soothe the brain and encourage learning. Huhu.
Tingmei-
You bitch. But you know my feelings for you. Without you i'll be a anal-retentive prick. Hn i don't wanna sit with you either. Actually i'm fine with anything. Shows that i'm nicer than you. HAHA :P! Ooo and please don't do that angsty-broody-mopey stuff all the time, there's something called psychiatric help, and you know i'll always be there no matter you appreciate it or not. It's better to let things out then keep them in you know, ninny.

Jeslyn&Lizzie:
Whoa without you guys, Tingmei and mine's lives will be as trite as unmoving windmills.
Picturesque, but there is really nothing more interesting than that.
Initially we thought we were doomed, and yea we were.
But the amusement and laughs you put me through, might as well redempt you for causing us to lose concentration.
Without you, i might turn into a Julia or something.
So thanks alot for all the madness and mirth you subjected us too, ( esp. during Art)
i enjoyed every thorough moment of it!
Err, but you guys have to be more serious next year.
BUT PLEASE NO LOSE THE HUMOUR OR LIFE WILL BE DANK LIKE STAGNANT WATER. :D
O and don't be offended i didn't thank you both individually, cause you 2 are too similiar in the ways of humour, so content will be redundant anyway. Muahhaa.

Lings:
I love you. I bet you are my sister from another lifetime. I've never met anyone who's personality matches me so much. All those odd quirks, the mirror-preening,the imitating,the tittering and guffawing, etc. It's just pure crack. Sometimes i wonder if such weirdness is legal. I love you. :DD

Janice,Tutu,Stef,Eva,Rhubs:
Missed you people like mad. Havn't seen you guys for so long.
Miss all the crap we do together, during all those Mcdonalds meetings and outings, talking about the most ridiculous things, all the laughter and shitte.
Glad that we can still keep in touch though we ain't in the same class anymore.

Alisa,Alicia Soo,Hilary:
Soooo&Weeweee-
I'll never forget the Yamashita fanclub madness and that ninny portrait of Yamashita in drag. And all the irrelevant crap and other funny-as-hell stuff. I swear you 2 generate humour from the weirdest things. That's a skill. And the manga! More soulmates!! Huhuhu. Naruto rocks and so does Japanese food! :D:D
Hilary-
Jerryfishhh~ You amuse to no end. None at all. Annoying you is a favourite past-time coz' your reactions makes life so interesting. Your sarcasm mechanism is so amusing. I cannot stop laughing at you. You're a intellectual ass, so continue being that, or i'll bite you. :D

Jeanne,Eunice,Nat,Alicia:
Our class will be as equally dank and trite without you guys.
Continue with the funny stuff, because laughter makes people less irritable!
You people reap the fun into the class. :D

3C1'04
We don't blend well together at all, wahahha, but still it's a great class. Full of different people, it makes us stray away from our attachment to our sec2 classes and mingle with more people. Meet more people, make more friends, what a happy world!
(Lol whatever. That was so cheesy)

Ok I can't think of anymore people to thank and rant about.
So much for the 10 million people list huh.
Sorry ta all those i forgot to mention, you can come beat me up when school reopens.
Ooo and look at the time. I wanted to finish this at 0000 charp but uh, it failed.
Arghs nevermind, shall see you all in school on Mon.
My time really does flies, why can't we get frequent flyer miles for that?
Sore jaa, goodnightt.
Oo, and before that;


HAPPY NEW YEAR. :)

HeyYa._Outkast
Shake it,shake shake shake,shake it like a polariod picture~

Thursday, December 30, 2004

I saw another flasher.
For the third fucking time.
Some wandering old man around my estate
dropped his pants at the void deck when i went to buy strawberry milk.
I know the strawberry milk event is more riveting than the flasher but stop
looking at me i like strawberry milk it smells nice and tastes nice too. :P
Yea stupid hobo who looked like a wrinkled raisin expect to scare me with his equally
shrunken,crinkled,flaccid example of a male phallus.
Yea ta other females it is horrifying to be flashed and it kills their virgin eyes but
i'm a profane person so i have no virgin eyes and it doesn't feel like a big deal to me at all.
Maybe has to do with the fact i'm more unshaken or i've been flashed thrice and all flashers i've encountered are old senile men.
Hurms. But it irritates me to no end though.
Their perverse thrill at getting women horrified by showing their genitalia is so very annoying.
Don't you feel so?
I mean like get a life, that is a cheap thing to do.
Stared at him for a moment. ( he was leering, that filthy son-of-a-bitch.)
He talked something in some dialect and i gave him the universal finger salute and stalked off.
Stupid ninny. He kinda trailed after me but this neighbour went into the same lift as me so ,
too bad loser.
All the while his pants were down,
(haha, that's what happens when you make whimsical decisions!)
so i guess that's why the neighbour was quite scandalized
and i bet he or someone else called the cops already.
Loser.
Murh the world is full of annoying people.

I still have tons of homework to do and school's reopening on Mon.
I think that fact just registered in my brain. Hnn.


HarderToBreathe._Maroon5
This song, is like sex put in words. :D

HUHUHU.Ok i felt like saying that. No reason whatsoever.
Blame it on the impulses!
Last night when I couldn't sleep due to the perpetual shift in yesterday's sleep patterns, I thought of some things.
Self-amusement is very satisfying indeed.


I was wondering about ridiculous ways to die and I started laughing at my stupidity.
I'm a morbid person, so shut up. :P
I told Ayame, who is an insane cousin, about it and
she added 1 that made me so fucking tickled.
'Get mobbed by Yolanda fangirls.'
There was muted silence than i started chortling.
( 'Choking to death due to odd humour' is a likely murder technique for me too.)
Trust her to say that man. Muddd biatch. It's quite refreshing though.
Then I told her that it was quite impossible because
although I don't like it very much,
technically I'm part of the fangirls association and if they come attack me then it will be like internal disputes and that kind of conflict
weakens the whole foundation of the organisation.
If there is one. It's quite appalling actually. HAHA.
And furthermore, females are exceptionally smart in certain matters,
especially those which involve face and reputation, and
they don't do things that harm both, like murder.
It's listed under the unwritten Things-That-Threaten-Status handbook.
After I pointed it out to Ayame, she considered the method,
then she gave her verdict that it's ok anyway
cause' it's a fictional take and meant to be ridiculous anyway.
Then I remembered, 'yea the whole point is to be ridiculous' so I agreed.
Case closed.
Eventually I went to continue watching the HongKong drama about vicious concubines and got really nauseous about their deceptive behaviour.


That was my bad attempt at humour.
Nevertheless, it amused me greatly.
Staying up at night can be very boring when you can't use the com and there are no neighbours to harass and there ain't any stars and your mom is watching football.
(Till now I can't fathom why she likes that ninny game.)
It's nice to talk shit once in a while, although I do it all the time.
No I think illegible shit all the time.
And now i'm going to read my daily intake of angst.

TheVoiceWithin._ChristinaAguilera

I awoke at 7 in the morn today.
After a night's worth of insomia.
And i kind of forgot to even close the door to the toilet.
I think i wasn't exactly awake at all. Zombified.
Ahahah. My mom was so scandalized. She started yelling.
At 7 in the morn.
Watched some dvds my mom rented back.
Those Hongkong dramas.
Concubines of the emperor are all evil conniving power-hungry vain bitches.
They backstab and plot and basically try to eradicate each other to increase chances of sleeping with the emperor.
Eunuchs are stupid ninner perverts. Especially the old ones. Although they got no cocks.
And they treat servents so poorly.

Ugh. I was so disgusted by all of them.
Makes me feel so relieved we're living in this era now.
Went to catch up on lost sleep later on. Supposed to be a nap but slept until 10pm.
Madness. Tonight i'll be up the whole night already.
Ooo and my ear canal finally unclogged.
Err, is that the term?
The feeling you get when too much water gets into your ears. The half-deaf feeling.
It's finally gone after...a month? Since Wild Wild Wet. -.-
Sure took a long time. I feel so alive now, now the vibration input is at maximum.
Huhuhuhu.
Alright i have to shut up now, dad's coming back soon and he's a mofo.
:P


IJustWannaLive._GoodCharlotte

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Did a quiz. Huhuhuhu..

Ok. Cool. Even the quiz says i'm a perv.



Tatsuha! You sexy pervert!

What Gravitation Chracter are you like?
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Lala._AshleeSimpson

Monday, December 27, 2004

Since there's nothing interesting that happened today,
(maybe except reading Death Note scanlations, but no friends of mine read that so what's the point of elaborating?)
I shall just go rant.
Ranting is my form of therapy anyway. It kind of keeps me calm and collected.
You know it sucks when i'm jammed up, coz' i'll be uncharacteristically bitchy and sulky and sometimes i will go confess myself again, without much brain-processing and then i'll end up
saying things i shouldn't have said.
Imbecilic.

I think i'm developing MPD.
Multiple personality disorder.
You know, i talk to myself in my head. Like holding conversations.
I wonder if that is normal.
Or am i too paranoid? That's not good either.
It might lead to schizophrenia.
Yea. So i converse mentally with thyself.
Over mundane things and not-so mundane things.
And sometimes it's really scary coz' i get so fucking pissed over something,
then very shortly later, i get ok.
Sometimes i don't even remember or get why i felt that way.
It's kind of like memory lapses. And everybody knows memory lapses
are nothing good. Especially when you suspect you have MPD.
You might just have killed somebody without knowing.
I know that coz' i read that in a book once.
But then again MPD is usually caused when the person undergone a traumatizing experiance,
and in order to protect themselves, alternate personalities surface.
But it can happen without that too.
Yea so who knows, i might be potential.
On the other hand, that might be quite interesting.
You must be thinking i contradict. Ya i do. :P
Whatever. I can't think what to type anymore.
Jaanee.


1/2 Step._Ciara.featMissyElliot
I love this song. Makes me feel like dancing.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Eminem's Encore is so explicit. Hurmm. But the songs have nice music.
Makes me wanna LALA.
Just got back from Compassvale.
Ate Japanese food. Bah fuck the ninner restaurant changed their whole menu?
So little choices now.
Wanted ta eat the Gindara set but alas, IT AIN'T THERE ANYMORE.
Before that got the Edusave Merit Bursary presentation.
There were so many people. So boring. I was stoning like a statue.
This girl next to me keep swinging her legs and it kept hitting my chair sending annoying vibrations up the chair and i was irritated.
Many things irritate me hn.

Ok from today onwards on every entry there will be something i want to rant about.
What i feel like talking can't I? Better letting things out then keeping them all in what.
Thee has to many things to be kept bottled, you ninner.
So t'was the first thing i want to rave and rant about:
Heard Blue's Curtain Falls? Ninner song. Blue irritates me now. I don't know why.
I think it's because of Lee's super-constipated look when he sings. And there's a Lee soprano in every Blue song. How annoying.
O but i like the starting music of the song. It sounds like the machine in the hospital that monitors heartbeats and makes the 'beep' sound.
Stop giving me those looks. The image just materialises into my head.
I think it's the rhythm that makes me think likewise.
Huhuhu.
And also, my laughter evolved. It's huhuhuhuhu now.
Madness. I think i'm insane. Huu.

My1stSingle._Eminem

Saturday, December 25, 2004

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Teehee. It's Christmas again!
Muahaha. I got hundreds of CDs now. How joyful.
And i got the 8th book of Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. Muahaha. The Ashura and Fai relationship is very very suspicious and it makes my (yaoi) fangirl vibes tingle.
Something happened before, judging from Fai's expressions.
And before anybody tells me, 'Oh you sick freak they are not like that' or whatever,
It was just an implication but it is a most probable idea as CLAMP is famous for this type of style ( that classic 'I'm-hiding-a-secret-i'm-sorry-i-can't-tell-you-coz'-im- not-ready-yet' look.)
And also I ask you have you ever seen a CLAMP male character who's 100% straight?
It is a trademark trait please.

Ok back to Christmas. Manga always get me carried away.
No good no good. Christmas signifies the coming of the new year which im so unprepared
for , ( THE O'S.)
And it means no more holidays of lazing around at home using the com, watching tv and sleeping 27/7. You have to say i'll double in size when i come back to school.
And no more spontaneous going-out-when-i-feel-like-it.
But then again, there are 2 sides to every argument and even though this isn't technically an argument ,but who really cares , the concept is there anyway, so naturally there are good things about going back to school.

Well first, the stupid new school is so near my stupid house i can walk there every morning.
Almighty laugh at all those poor folk who need alternative transport to get there.
Secondly i can get to see all the people i hadn't seen in 2 months like DUSTBIN
( god i missed your dumpiness although you're not much shorter then me it's habit so don't kill me and if you have to go take Lings out too 'cause she calls you that too)
And others whom you know who you are as i'm too lazy to type all names out and if i did the entry will span 13 Word pages.
Thirdly, mum wouldn't babble so much about my routine anymore.
Fourth, i kind of miss SiewChoo and her shit although she's a round tub of bibleverse-spewing lard. You know, laughing at her with your peers is a very enjoyable pasttime.
Fifth, the same with all the other teachers.
Sixth, the new school's kinda cool coz' it's really gigantic in terms of compound and we can go play truant or fuck or play hide n' seek or murder somebody without people finding us. And we can take our own sweet time to the remotely faraway bookshop and have an excuse when we turn up in class 30mins late.
Seventh, all of the above for my own amusement.

Alright. I think i blabbered enough nonsense today.
Owell. Bye.

SinceU'veBeenGone._KellyClarkson

Monday, December 20, 2004

Back from Ling's hse.
I love that bitch of mine.
We laughed, we poked fun, we crapped, we got hormonal, we watched many shows.
And most importantly, we laughed.
Imprint that in your heads mortals.
Yes.
Did like 30mins of hmk, and i got bored.
The rest, fabricate your own stories.

Have been going to church the past 2 days.
Yes i know, shut up.
Saturday's talk was about sexuality. You know, sexuality?
For once, I was not fervently bitching/criticising/demeaning/imagining sadistic deaths/angry/offended etc.
I was rather enthralled.
Why?
It made sense. You know how ground-breaking is that?
For a moment, i was in a dilemma. It didn't help the speaker was damn FUNNY AND WITTY. You know i love such people.
But cough, i'm back to the old self already.
So, end of story.
Some party on Sunday. I was greatly amused by Delicia who graced the party with her presence for 30mins. Hahahaa.
Really i was amused. Not in a sarcastic way. Genuinely.
She brought a pretty friend. :) Prettyprettypretty!
And i saw a pretty boy. Muahaha.
XD


IrishSon._BrianMcfadden

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Seriously i'm going to die, if i breathe in anymore fucking secondhand smoke.
It felt like my trachea just jammed up and breathing was rapid and irratic. Suffocation.
Do the faggers actually know how fucking inconsiderate it is?
Letting people inhale that noxious,pestiferous, carcinogenic toxicant, unfiltered.
I told you people are selfish.
From the most mundane things to things like this.
Seriously i wonder if that thought actually ever remotely crossed their minds while puffing on that cancerous stick.
The thought that they are not only endangering themselves, but others around and the neglected environment.
Well i guess the numeric value is atrociously close to nil. Or maybe even subzero.
That train of thought alone is enough to trigger fierce acrimony within me.

Sometimes i just wish for the obliteration of the entire world.
For all of our corruption,deception,evil and abolition we're doing to each other.
For all the harm we're doing yet continue to do because we think the world will last us forever.
This is total crapshit.
Now you think i'm insane. You think i'm overreacting. I'm planning for the mass genocide for my own kind.
So what.
We kind of deserve it anyway. For what we do to the planet and each other.
See me as deranged. I think i am too.
When something does ignite my opinion, i stand by it.
Having insight gives me a very empathetic nature.
It is a double-edged sword.
What i get back, the emotional backlash, is more intense than those who don't have the it.
And very much more complicated. That is why such nihilistic shit comes out of my mind. Equivalent trade huh? I have something, i get something in return.
Nothing's ever free in this world anymore.
Sometimes i wonder how did i cope with all this heightened feelings.
I don't think i ever did. It made me into who I am.
Like some fictional multi-faceted psycho bitch who doesn't know which personality is domineering; which is the real one, which is the subconcious.
I don't care what you think or what your opinions are on my rant.
I just express myself when thoughts overwhelm my control.
Cleared some minds;
or made some enemies, so be it.



Hysteria._Muse

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Mom is now mouthing her homophobic comments at some drama.
What the fuck.
Yes i terribly unpleased.
Seriously I don't understand why some people are so tight-lipped, close-minded and prejudiced against it.
It makes me very angry.
But then again, society is like that. So are people. They don't like something that is different from the mass society. They just don't accept it. Anything that is not in their comfort zone, they don't like it. Many people feel this way.
But many people feel the other way too.
That fact alone gives me a very liberated feeling.
Call me whatever, but i've decided this is where i stand.

Hn. It's one of those days where i sit at home and rot.
*Rolls around the table
Pah. I wanna watch Prince Of Tennis. Lenders, anyone?
And I need more yaoi. Fufufu.
My mind's wandering all over. Shows that i'm extremely bored and i start thinking stupid things, like " What if i swallow dung will i die of internal infection?"
Lalalala. Would I?

Ooo and i saw a big blue bug on my windowsill today.
I poked it and it flew into my face.
I screamed.
After 3 seconds i stopped the pointless screaming and plucked it off my face.
I threw it out of the window.
That's the last time i saw of Big Blue Buggy today.
Went to read on the toiletbowl after that.

Sissy is bitten by the Naruto lovebug.
Hahaha. Yay triumph the all-powerful Naruto.
Bow in exaltation peoples!
Ohohohohoho. Whatever.


Scarlet._AyashiNoCeresOP

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

I love Death Note.
Yes i admit at first it was wordy and difficult to understand coz'
im dumb and brainless to buy the Taiwan version with harder chinese.
But the art was lovely (HnG's mangaka) so i hanged on. :P
And it proved itself as such a genius manga.
The plot for instance is just so, suspenseful and intrigueing
and it's a thriller type of crime story.
The delivery is like whoa la, to put it simply.
It just keeps you on your toes.
And only geniuses can write and draw such plots well.
I'm awed. Second day in running.
Yayers. Hope it continues stunning coz' i'll be damn
disappointed if it suddenly flops or something.
:D



Christmas._TheDarkness
The band ( or more aptly put, the lead singer) must be on crack. HAHA. Hilariously goosepimpling video.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

I am still very much perturbed by yesterday's events.
Bah i really don't take shocks well.
Hn must hone my mind and strengthen my composure.
Roar.


ANYWAY;
Went to school to get my books. HAHA. Got lost. -_-
After much wandering i finally found the bookshop.
New school's quite coool.
Very open and it does not give the 'bird-in-the-cage' feeling.
Canteen's extra tiny though. Hnn. I need a conducive environment to eat.

Waited for Heidi.
It kinda rained so i went to sit at the blocks opposite the school.
Stoned for 103941910342 minutes.
Band's SYF song is very nice. Wanted to prance around but no, it's a public place and i'm a civilized individual. Ok enough self-love.
My dearest princess finally arrives. ( she demanded i call her that. Madness.)
Wanted to walk home but the sky was greying.So took bus and bought lunch.
Ate and watched Naruto.(heartheart)

NYAHAHAHA. Finally! Sooo finally remembered.
I was awed by Itachi. (I love his Sharingan. Red eyes! XD)
He's insanely powerful. My gosh.
His Mangekyou Sharingan's technique Tsukiyomi is damn brutal la.
Mind-fucks. The worst type of torture. Muahaha. Poor Sasuke.
Love Tsunade and Jiraiya. Wahaha kuso-baba & ero-sennin. SO FUNNY LA THEM.
And Orochimaru was as gross and deluded as usual. (The tongue!The neck!)
Hope he chokes on his own tongue one day. That ninny.
The Sannin fight was fucking awesome. I was so worked up. HAHA.:P
And the episodes end there. Major anti-climax.

I need to learn how to use Bittorrent. >_>
Or whatever the downloading thing is called.
Or will somebody be a nice soul and help me burn the rest?:D

MrBrightside._TheKillers

Monday, December 13, 2004

Yesterday night and today morning, i heard a strange, err, rubbing sound.
Frantic rubbing.
I think my cousin was masturbating,
IN MY ROOM.
I shall process this maturely and not gag. It is getting very difficult, keeping my cool.
And you ask me how the hell do i know.
-There was a blanket covering his anatomies.
How blatant is that. And said blanket is one of my comforters.(BLANCHES.)
I don't think my resilience can hold much longer.
-His toes were curling. In that orgasm way. His body was very taut. Ughs. I feel very queasy.
-His heavy laboured breathing.
For someone as *cough*knowledgeable*cough* as me, this is as obvious as fireworks against the black sky.

A pervert knows perverse things when he/she sees( more like accidental visual assault.) one.
But i don't have the sturdy mindset to adapt to overwhelming situations like this.
Plus, he's a 11 year old kid. This is so paedophilic. Kids are growing up too fast nowadays.
I think i'm going to let my inhibitions free and go hyperventilate now. Yes.
Good night.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

This is a sign that I should not be in love with him, but the heart is a dumb-ass organ, bent on doing things its own, stupid way.
-quoted.


WAHAHAHAHA.
This is a damn cute phrase. Especially the 'dumb-ass organ" part.
XD



RichGirl._GwenStefani

Sarah McLaughlin has a nice smooth voice. ( is that how you spell her name?)
Like Dido.
Hohoho.
I realise i have alot of music in my com which i never knew of.
Un.




WishingOnAStar._Beyonce

Saturday, December 11, 2004

I'm convinced there's smth going on between the two of them.
Nothing fools my insight. (Mwahahaha.)
Owell. I don't care about such trivial matters now.
Shall continue reading Gravitation whom i've just reacquainted with after such a long period of time. ( Nosebleeds all over Yuki.)
^^

P.S: MY YOUNGEST SISTER IS A DUMB FUCK. (appalled at the fact i'm related to her.)


Karma._AliciaKeys
what goes around comes around what goes up must come down lalalala~

HAHA. I got back my Gravitation. After 902389230850298 years.
Fucking funny insane crappy shit of a manga if you ask me.
:D:D:D
HAHAH I LIKE K. XD
Have a feeling if i lived in an alternate manga universe, my personality will be exactly the same as that ridiculously mad,gun-toting American with crazy humour.


Foot binding is cruel. :<
Lucky there ain't such practices now.
Or else,
Silence.

Friday, December 10, 2004

I observed people have a great distinct magnetism to melodrama.
Especially those with who had 'fallen from grace'. Private joke.
If there's another thing that irritates me as much as sap,
it's excessive unneeded melodrama.
Such emotions are very overrated.
Please, there are a great many things you've never been through and most probably never will.
Compared to a great many things, they don't seem that significant. At all.
It's very irritating.
And before someone comes up and puts words back into my mouth,
i don't think mine are such a big issue either.
Infact i never did. It's too miniscule to be worth the oversized amount people put behind their fallen graces,unattainabilities and other stuff.
I'm sorry if I sound condescending or unsympathetic, but people really should tone down.
Goodnight.

I observed people have a great distinct magnetism to melodrama.
Especially those with who had 'fallen from grace'. Private joke.
If there's another thing that irritates me as much as sap,
it's excessive unneeded melodrama.
Such emotions are very overrated.
Please, there are a great many things you've never been through and most probably never will.
Compared to a great many things, they don't seem that significant. At all.
It's very irritating.
And before someone comes up and puts words back into my mouth,
i don't think mine are such a big issue either.
Infact i never did. It's too miniscule to be worth the oversized amount people put behind their fallen graces,unattainabilities and other stuff.
I'm sorry if I sound condescending or unsympathetic, but people really should tone down.
Goodnight.

Some people are very annoying.
Hnnn. Damn i'm so irritated. If i was an animal my fur will be all bristling. Twitch.
I feel like doing something stupid and childish like throwing tantrums but i shall not because it's against my way of living.
Must tolerate. Zen.
It'll help alot later in life. :)
I watched Minority Report. Haha. It's complex. So futuristic. Pre-cogs.

Miss Lings. All her crap and stories and stuff.
She makes me laugh and then i dont become a pissy idiot.
I'm sure many people feel that way. She's just too cute and funny for her own good.
And Lings if you're reading this, im complimenting you. :D


WhiteHouses._VanessaCarlton
This is a cute song. +Prances

Minny wrote on 10:32 PM.

HAHA. I must watch Alexander.
WHY?
-Gay scenes. (Jared Leto is so very cute :D)

Actually that's the main reason anyway.
The blatant gay content is drawing me like a moth to a flame.
Muahhahahahaa.
I will watch it.
Muahahahhahahahhahaa.
WAITING FOR THE DVD. (since S'pore thinks it's funny to slot in the M18 rating. Twitches.)
Muahahhahahahahha.


LikeToySoldiers._Eminem

Minny wrote on 4:46 PM.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

I'm feeling particularly sombre now.
You know, sometimes you get the feeling that you're only a onlooker, and there's nothing you could do with the power you have.
Is this what they mean by 'Helplessness'?
It's not a nice feeling.
Especially if you were so close to the person you want so much to assist, but you find out you can't reach for her.
Your flailing arms seem to pass through her, dispelling the illusion that you could be the one to bring her back from the darkness.
Helplessness is this. The moment when you're roughly shoved back to reality to assess the real situation. When you finally realise you can't do not a thing.
Hurts especially so when a close friend is the one who is falling,falling,falling.
Reality is a cruel slap to the face.
What can I do now?
Nothing.
Except to hope that she has enough willpower and belief in herself to overcome everything.
Helplessness makes you feel weak. Mentally, physically and emotionally.
Please come back. It hurts a hell lot. Please.




YourSong._EwanMcGregor

Minny wrote on 1:12 AM.